Throughout my travels in life, I had it rather easy. I have a loving mother and a supportive dad when going to my bowling practices, and even in my interest in chess during my high school years. Being a high school chess champion in my Junior and Senior years was a very big milestone for me. I was often called a nerd, although my grades did not reflect it entirely. Of course, my decisions had led to a lot of hardships and learning experiences. Some decisions I do regret and others I don’t. My friends are very eclectic, just like I am. My mother always told me “define yourself.” I often tend to hide a lot of emotions. I always believe I have to be strong in the eyes of adversity.
So one day, I started telling others “I am Awesome” and “I am the best there was, the best there is, and the best there will ever be at what I do.” Often I get accused of being big-headed or I get little smirks. I am a strong believer that most people will not give you encouragement. Encouragement comes from the Word of God, parents, and other family members. However, there is always something inside of us that wants to be accepted. I realized that Most people are not worried about your well-being. To some, you just exist. It is a mindset. If I don’t think I am Awesome or the best, who will? It’s like that saying… you are what you think. Eventually, my mind will be programmed and it will come as second nature. I look at it as confidence.
A lot of things has been happening to me over the course of a two weeks. I will not comment on it extensively, but I will share this. On my break one day, I was in my car. I asked the Lord God, why? Why does this keeps happening to me? Why, why, why? Just as I finished that last why, I heard a sweet, soft, innocent voice. This voice I knew was the Lord God speaking to me. I heard it as plain as if I was talking to someone personally. This voice, the Lord God, said “you have to be stronger.” I did not like that answer, but I was blessed to even get an answer from the most High.
Now I will admit, I am getting a bit carried away as I am now calling myself Phenomenally Awesome. I don’t know if there is such a term, but it sounds good (laughing out loud).
CF Boston Brian
The Phenomenally Awesome Eclectic One (smiling)